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I got sick two weeks in a row. First I had that cold I mentioned in my last post. A few days after I got better from that, I started having bad stomach pain. I think being sick might have killed some of the good bacteria in my gut or something? Or I am just really unlucky. I also had a minor strain that I had to visit the doctor about. I think I am starting to feel better though! … I hope!!

I feel so behind on everything and anything, even fun/relaxing activities. I have barely done any crochet, I haven’t been practicing uke, I haven’t been reading,I am barely even playing games! The whole past two weeks felt like a blur. I have just kinda been so miserable that I wasn’t able to focus on doing any of the things I would normally do.

I think I am going to give myself the weekend off to just kinda do what feels good, and then Monday I will transition back to my usual routines. It feels kinda weird to do a full reset on a weekend for me I guess.

With being sick I had to cancel a few outings I wanted to do this month, but there were times I was still well enough to go out. The first was visiting a new trans support group. I have been going to this group on and off for about 10 years now, but I haven’t attended in years. Their meeting place has moved around a few times, and it got moved to the other side of town. I don’t drive, and any time I made plans to get a ride, it would fall through. Recently I found out they meet downtown again, which is within walking distance for me! I know quite a bit of the queer and trans population in my town, so I expected I was going to know everyone there, but surprisingly they were all new people to me! My gf and I went together and I think we had a good time. We plan to go again next month.

The other thing I got to do was go shopping with my gf and best friend! I haven’t seen my friend IRL since January, so I was really excited to see them! There were a few times we tried to meet up, but things fell through because of bad weather, illness, and the like. We went to Target to go look around and waste our tax return money. I have a few Responsible Adult things I need to spend my tax return on, but I have been miserable, so I think I deserve a few things I have been wanting. We also went to Five Below and it was overstimulating as hell and we were all miserable when we left, but I got some good fidget toys. One nice thing about having neurodivergent friends is everyone is generally very understanding when we are overstimulated/burnt out and need to end the hang. I think originally we did plan to hang out after shopping, but all of us just wanted to go home lol.

I don’t have any big plans for St Patrick's Day. I live in a high Irish immigrant area (and in fact my mom’s side of the family is Irish), so there is always a lot to do this weekend and a big parade. I was going to see if my dad wanted to watch the parade, just for something to do, but it is supposed to be cold that day and I don’t care that much to see it. Later in the evening there is a poetry event at a local queer cafe that a friend invited my gf and me to. I plan to go and I will probably bring one of my crochet projects to work on. I find I listen a lot better when I crochet. I have some auditory processing issues, so I am not sure how much I will be able to hear everything, but I think it will just be fun to go!

I am hoping to get the energy back to start practicing ukulele again. I had energy a couple days between when I got better from my first illness that I practiced 3 finger cords and learning to play You Are My Sunshine. Three finger cords went a lot better than I expected! I am having issues with feeling like I can’t control my fingers precisely enough, so I was expecting to have more of an issue with it. I am borrowing a uke from the library, but I am thinking about buying my own. I gotta see how much of my tax return is left after responsibilities, but I should have enough. I walked up to the local music store and picked out one I liked already. :]

I am starting to get sleepy, so I think I will wrap it up here. The month is halfway over, but there is still plenty of time to enjoy it. I am looking forward to hopefully getting back on my routines, and if I don’t,,, oh well, I try again the week after that.