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Well I had my stomach scope yesterday, and it looks like I have gastritis, and possibly IBS. This is kind of the result I expected, and I am just thankful there were no ulcers or anything worse. I had some biopsies taken and will have to wait a little bit longer to see if this is being caused by a bacteria or not. I have been doing my best to take things day by day. It is hard, it is painful, and at times it is scary. I am currently waiting on a phone call back from a local therapy office to see about getting on their waiting list. I know very well that stomach issues can be made worse by stress and anxiety, and I know I struggle with both those things. I want to reach out for help as soon as I can. I am doing what I can to take care of myself and thankfully have a strong support system, but I know I am going to need more help.

Otherwise, everything feels like a blur right now. I didn’t think I was particularly anxious about getting my scope done, but I also feel like I haven’t done much of anything the past two weeks. I have worked on the garden quite a bit though. The other day I planted some more seeds. I think my other seeds were planted too early? Because none of them worked out :/ I am hoping I have better luck with this new set of seeds. This year I am going to try growing peas and beans for the first time. I have shelling pea, dry bean, and bush bean seeds I got from my library. I don’t think I have ever had home grown dry beans before, but I am excited to get to try them out in soups during the fall and winter!

I haven’t been reading as much as I would normally. I am finding it hard to stay concentrated for that long. My gf borrowed some Scooby Doo comics from the library and I have been reading those since they are one shot stories that are fairly short. Speaking of comics, my gf went to the comic book store while I was at my scope yesterday. (My gf doesn’t drive, so my mom took me for my scope and I didn’t want to bring too many people) The owner said they had a great turn out for Free Comic Book Day, but he also had a lot of extras leftover. She brought me Monster High, Unico, and Unicorn Crush. She also bought me a couple Sonic comics she thought I would like. The Monster High one seems pretty interesting! I will for sure check it out when it goes for full release. It also looks like they are supposed to have a Pride comic this year!!

I have been trying my best to stay active while also being mindful of my limits right now. I don’t guilt myself if I have to stop an exercise early because it has become too much. Now that the weather is nicer, but not too hot, I have been going for walks. I strongly believe in finding an exercise/movement that you enjoy and doing that as often as possible. For me that is walking. I feel so much better when I can go out for walks and explore. I have never been particularly athletic or strong, but doing what I can is both stress relieving and empowering. When the weather stops me from going outside for a walk, I tend to do an indoor walking exercise off of youtube. Honestly sometimes I do seated/for senior type exercises when I still feel the urge to move, but my energy levels are low. I totally recommend it!

I have also been practicing more with painting. As a gift for myself I bought a block of 100% cotton paper, a color theory workbook, and a nicer quality round brush. I feel like I have to learn how to paint all over again with the new paper, or at least I have to learn paint and water control all over again. I really wanted to upgrade as soon as I could, and I am glad I did. The way the paint moves and flows already feels so much smoother. I borrowed a fun book from my library called Painting Cats. Here is a kitty I painted following a tutorial in the book! I think he looks polite :]

That is about it for today! Hopefully next time I come around I have some more progress/answers about my health. Remember to take care of yourself. Take 5 minutes for yourself today to just breath