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Hi gamers. Tomorrow is my birthday and I will become an old little man of 30 years. I am not really sure how I feel about it. I don’t feel very strongly about it, but I feel like I am supposed to. I picked up my birthday cake today and tomorrow my gf and I are going to pick up a charcuterie I ordered myself. I was thinking about planning a party of some sort to invite some friends to, but I just haven’t really had the energy.

And I haven’t really had the energy to work on web dev stuff either. I had all these plans of what I wanted to do with my websites once cohost closed, but I really haven’t done anything. I haven’t even been updating the webring I made (sorry if you applied, I will likely get around to updating it again eventually). I guess this is a blog post to say I am kinda on hiatus? Idk for how long or how much of a pause it will be. I have been pretty busy with stuff irl and just haven’t had any extra energy to direct towards this. I don’t think it is a bad thing though, because I am very happy with a lot of the things I have going on right now.

Therapy has been going really well. I was very lucky and was matched with their LGBT specialist, who just happens to also be nonbinary and neurodivergent. I have been self dx’d as autistic for about 10 years now. There are times on and off that I tried getting an official diagnosis, but struggled to find any help. I did not mention anything about suspected autism on my intake paperwork or to the therapist, however I am pretty sure they realized I am autistic during the first session.

They haven’t directly said anything to me yet, but every time we meet they keep linking the things I am saying and the medical issues I am having and mentioning they are commonly seen in people who are autistic. I guess they are assuming I already know I am autistic? Which they are right! But still! I think next session I am going to ask them directly about it. I am actually really happy. It feels so affirming to have a medical professional immediately recognize me as autistic. I am not really sure if I will pursue a diagnosis. I will have to talk to my therapist and think about it for a little while.

These past few weeks I have been very involved with my local trans support group. We are US based and obviously have some concerns about the future. We’ve been chatting more and having little impromptu hangouts over discord calls. Our local LGBT organization is being really helpful and directly asking us what sort of support and resources we are needing right now. Even before the election happened, our local general LGBT and trans specific support groups have had plenty of new faces every meeting. I am a bit nervous about what could happen next year, but I am glad to be in a group that has been so supportive and is continuing to expand to help the community.

Anyways I dont have much else to say right now. Outside of therapy and my trans community, I’ve mostly been keeping to myself and personal projects. I’ve been working on crafts and relearning Japanese. I try to spend time every day doing things like reading, yoga, and just generally taking care of myself. I have been trying to cook more often. I am even maybe getting into baking again.

I hope all is going well for you dear reader, and even if it isn’t, I hope you are at least able to find a moment of peace today.